I WANT IT NOW!

 Have you ever come home from vacation and felt overwhelmed? You walk around the house and see everything wrong that you want changed, the house seems disheveled and dirty. Your thoughts begin to this...I can't keep up, I won't be able to do this much longer, how will things get back to normal, why can't things around here be better. You feel like giving up. Like you don't matter. Like what does it matter if I go on?

You try fighting the thoughts but they just feel so strong. Getting out of bed seems impossible.

You know Jesus is there. You know the Holy Spirit is active, yet it isn't getting better as 24 hours pass.

Please just pray, "Help". The help begins to present itself. You think a verse or force your attention to a devotion. A verse begins to stick. This is real time for me. I turned on the Christian radio and the topic matches your thoughts. The host is teaching on overcoming thoughts, and the verse arises, "Ask anything in my name and I will do it." Your faith begins to rise within. I text a special circle of friends, "Please pray for me my thoughts are not centered and I need to have the power to fight them and I know only  God can do that. I'm going to the throne and asking for help like scripture says that I have the power, love and sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7"

One responded, "Lord Jesus, I claim your word in 2 Tim. 1:7 right now. Fill her with your confidence and peace. Remind her of your promise in Matthew 21:22, to pray believing, and she will receive."

I was asking God the same thing pray and receive. It began to believe to be revealed how focused I am on myself, my house, meaningless stuff. I saw I need to have things in place and then I will be in peace and thriving. My perspective was all off! I need the better things in my house and it to be a certain order than I can think straight. That is perfectionism! A liar is lying to me! Perspective from God's word begins to block the lies that flood my mind. I respent, "God I am sorry for believing I need to get my house in order and then I will thrive and life within me." Wanting things in order is not wrong, thinking that I could get back into my routines in my own strength is wrong. I was relying on myself and was thinking I can't do it therefore "I give up all right to existing". Is this crazy! Yes, it is!

Truth takes back over my mind. The word says, "He will guard my mind and heart." This was happening in real time. My wanting things perfect in order to exist is ridiculous and why does that really matter to me? I begin to remember that God will give me things in the time when really needed and it doesn't have to be all at once. NOW! Now screamed and because of prayer it was now being silenced/blocked!

I am laughing now because what comes to mind is the Willy Wonka character Veruca Salt demands, "I want it now!" Remember her bratty attitude.

Contentment, peace only come in the name of Jesus, everything else is made up imagination. You think you need all the strength now and then you will run through the house and get it all done and then you can be content and have meaning for life and purpose....blah, blah, blah!

I pray you let God into every moment so the Holy Spirit can bring clarity, perspective and peace of mind. Thinking you have to do it all NOW is distorted thinking! 

That familiar old spirit of PERFECTIONISM creeps up and deceives me!

I prayed, repented and received the truth and things were definitely better. Strength from the Lord covered me and blocked all giving up thoughts.

I pray you understand and feel helped.