Tuesday, February 27, 2024

REPLACEMENT THERAPY

 Another, Another, and there is another!

Therapy clinics line up along the major roads as I drive down the main street near my home.

Many Children therapy clinics have popped open recently. I use the word popped, it's just so many since covid. I know the increase of anxiety, depression, stress, burnt out, overload, and exhaustion. It's all real but I have to say, I myself in my twenties, thirties have been twisted up with the above.

The word therapy an approved service that clinics are have waitlists to get into. My mom born in 1938 lived in times where therapy was possibly a bad word. Life was so full of secrets and keeping hush about it the way of the world.

I am not writing this to debate the effectiveness of therapy. I have seen the greatness of both sides of therapy. 

I am writing from my own personal journey where my life has been transformed by replacement therapy, a termed that I blurted out while chatting with friends about my experience.

replacement; the action or process of renewal.

I referring to my thought life. When I really began to THINK ABOUT WHAT I AM THINKING.

John 14:26 states, "But the Counselor (capital C) the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you."

I poured out my heart and asked God to help me with my anxious thoughts, panic attacks. I heard the whisper in my soul as I was sitting at the kitchen table. "You will be healed, you won't know how long it will take, but learn as much as you can along the way." So the time to heal began and with God I was determined to see it through.

 


Monday, February 26, 2024

SOMEONE SAVED MY LIFE TONIGHT

It's four o'clock in the morning damn it, listen to me good!

I really woke up at that time and heard this old Elton John song in my head.

I hadn't heart this song since my high school years. What the1

Then more lyrics perfectly from this song.

And someone saved my life tonight, sugar bear.

You almost had your hooks in my, didn't you dear, you nearly had me roped and tied

hypnotized sweet freedom whispered in my ears, your a butterfly and butterflies are free to fly, fly away, high away., bye-bye.

Chorus repeat.

Someone saved, someone saved my life to night (ooh whoo)

Someone saved

someone saved

someone saved 

someone saved my life tonight. Tonight!

Lord does this have meaning from you to me?

It played strongly through the night. And in the morning I looked it up. Elton John's meaning was a commitment he was going to make to someone and realized he could not do that. He was saved from making a bad decision.

But for me. It meant evil tried to take me down another path at some point in my life, but Jesus won. He opened my eyes to the truth and my life charged down another path. This was my butterfly moment. I was a new creation in Christ. I realized my need for a Savior.

It almost had its hooks in me. 

But now I fly away from that, high away, bye-bye. No more gripping me.

I thank God for his good news. His reason for being.

I thank Him for showing me this interpretation of this song over me.

It made me feel Free! SWEET FREEDOM WHISPERED IN MY EAR!

LET IT BE

The world...

Giving up...

lost dreams...

or what we thought were dreams...

the aura of  art, creativity lost...

I left her with a prayer...asking God where did the aura of creativity go. "I had it before the kids were born, never got it back. Now I'm 80 and they are grown and gone. I don't know where it went, I never got it back", with sincerity my friend stated. This made me sad. As an artist myself I get the ups and downs of blocked creativity from writing and drawing.

Lord restore what stopped, bring it back. If it is your will have mercy., my prayer.

Friends, some of you may be experiencing what I'm talking about with my friend. A ceasing, a feeling of being cancelled. I know living in a season of cancel culture this is happening all around us.

But we don't have to except it when we are brought into awareness. Awareness is the beginning of prayer and then restoration. Her awareness is it was there and now it's not, an aura.

Grappling with reality of things myself, I got it what she was saying!

As I parted with her this song pops in my head, Let it Be!

Why that song I haven't heard it in years? Never heard it recently. I got in my car and searched Spotify for the Beatles song. Checking out the lyrics this spoke some truth for me and my Christian faith.

My truth

Let it be, Let it be, there will be an answer, Let it be. Let it be, let it be, whisper words of wisdom, let it be. When I find myself in trouble, Jesus comes to me, speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the night is cloudy there is still a light that shines on me shinin' until tomorrow, let it be, I wake up to the sound of music, Jesus comes to me, speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

This is my Christ view and truth...I will LET IT BE for now.

There will be an answer, LET IT BE.



Wednesday, February 7, 2024

GREENLIGHT

"I guess I have the "Greenlight", said in an upbeat positive tone!

Let me explain.

I was sitting in a coffee shop with a friend. Across from my table their was a young thirtysomething girl reading a book called GREENLIGHT by Matthew McConaughey. I had just recently looked him up on Wikipedia, so I was curious. I turned to the girl and asked hesitantly, "Excuse me, but I was wondering how you are liking that book?" 

Looking up at me she replied very nicely and openly, "I just got it, but it is talking about his childhood and moving along in life he wrote this book using his diary and stories. Each story has situations where he got the greenlight to move forward." Honesty of the success and failures which are yellow or red lights that eventually turn to GREENLIGHTS. 

Conversation took a turn to becoming deeper. I can't write it all it would be to long because I am sure the conversation was for a couple of hours. After giving her the reason for Jesus birth, death, resurrection-he sacrificial way He rescued us from death and brought us to life eternally.

 Sharing continued explaining choose life or death. God has given us eternal life and this life is in the son, he who has the son has life, he who does not have the son does not have life. Simple. No working toiling toward forgiveness, because Jesus came to set us from from works and brought us into a new life by believing and receiving Jesus Christ. 

We gave her a bible and she opened her heart to the understanding of what she had told her mom the week before meeting us, "Mom, I have been dreaming and thinking that we need to get back to our faith." Now she knows in a deeper sense of what Jesus was opening her heart to understand, we were the witness to confirm it, with a resounding, YES! YES! Choose life! Let the reading of the word wash over you and renew your mind, it is the instruction and food we need more than bread alone. We become new when we follow Him. With tears in her eyes we parted. She knew she had an encounter with the living Jesus who wanted to show her hope and love, I got to witness this eye opening experience. Her final words, "I guess I got the GREELIGHT!"

Go, go into the word.. Don't yellow, don't red, but green! Let the light guide you from this day forward. Let the Holy Spirit give you clarity. We prayed. It was so exciting to see my friend and my lunch prayer answered. Lunch prayer = Thank you for our food, bless this coffee shop and when people walk in they will sense the Spirit and desire the things of Jesus. Amen.

We gave her verses.

Psalm 139 which will confirm His direct attention God gives to those he created and wanted to be born. He just wants us to listen and see this truth.

Matthew 11:28 Come to me all who are weary and burdened and I will show you real rest for your soul. Come walk with me, talk with me, learn from me for I am gentle and humble at heart. And you will find rest for your soul.

John 14:6 I am the way the truth and life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

John the whole gospel.

Proverbs 2 seek the Lord like you would seek silver or gold (like a treasure) and then you will know the wisdom and understanding of God.

I am fully convinced God had her so ready to hear these truths and receive them.

Lord I pray for my new friend guide her protect, do not let the enemy have any way in her life or her families life. Guide her with your truth. Amen. ...

Friend open your heart to this truth and be set free from the tyranny of this world.

Sunday, February 4, 2024

WAITING ROOM

 

Think of yourself in the waiting room and what do you do with your time?

I usually get me fingers going and taking in the blue light on my social media. But what "if" us believers were more intentional on a grander scale using our whole life, metaphorically, as being in the waiting room till Jesus returns.-

   so when a situation arises what do we do?

recently on Dec. 9 i got a mole checked and my Dr. was alarmed and said, "I don't like the look of that!"

She gave me a name of a dermatologist. I called from the Dr. office and the number was disconnected. I went to the nurse to inform her the Dr. she gave me was not available. I prayed what will happen now I feel she scared me and I needed to be seen quickly. She went to the Dr. and within an hour my primary Dr. said she would shave biopsy it on Jan. 11. I had to wait. I prayed God not sooner. Then within 24 hours I met others with a cancer diagnosis on their skin, they quickly reassured me God is in control and if I needed to get in soon that He would make it happen. It was not happening, so I calmed down and said what do I do in the waiting.

I did exactly what I was trained to do in 1997 when I had panic and anxiety attacks. The Lord back then had all my attention. I made a list of all that's going on. Being very honest of every thought I have had in a day. Even if I thought about a relationship, one of my prayer request from a friend. even a concern of a child. Everything! That gets every real thing down and I'm looking at it. Even my what "if's"

Like what if I don't get an answer of what this is that week? What if it grows bigger and worse?

Next I remember the very important verses that warn me about this "what if" kind of thoughts!

Stinking Thinking!

2 Cor. 10:5 "We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." NIV

2 COR. 10:5 "We use our powerful God-tools for smashing warped philosophies, tearing down barriers erected against the truth of God, fitting every loose thought and emotion and impulse into the structure of life shaped by Christ." THE MSG

WHAT type of thoughts

Think about what you are thinking: all thoughts captive to Christ.

Imagination, arguments of the fight and what you could and could not say (these thoughts keep wanting you to pick up the phone and keep that unproductive work going), impulsive loose thoughts (thoughts can come from nowhere and fly out of your mouth, where are they from you, evil, or God), truth, lies, 

The list puts them in front of your eyes and now you go through them asking:

is this true, is it a lie, where did the thought come from (me, God, evil one), the true vs. lie test fits for all thoughts impulsive, loose, imagination. We need the hard cold facts, pray!

Distinguish, act on now, later, never. 

You see I am asking for the opportunity to grow through this waiting process or trial. 

Opportunity vs. depression, anxiety, worry.

What else does God have to say about these things?

Matt. 6:24 Don't worry about tomorrow.

Phil. 4:6-7 Do not be anxious for anything. Thru prayer and petition and thanksgiving (emphasis added) present your requests to God and He will guard your MIND AND HEART in Christ our Lord.

Whose in control?

Psalm 139 - God knows you so well. In the end of this psalm is an examination of your heart. Search me and know me see if there is anything in me. God reveal it.

Waiting, listening, hearing. In the story of the transfiguration my greatest take away, God says, "This is my beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased; listen to Him."

Question:

Slow down, sit down, quiet down. Are you seeing and listening that this is best for you right now. 

I memorized Psalm 139. yes! Put it on index cards and took it with me everywhere. Others I memorized all the 5 verses of assurance (find them google Navigator 5 assurance verses for memorizing. click on quizlet, a least that's at the top of my google search. Front page is flash cards with the 5), Is. 23:6 "You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you., 

Phil. 1:6 "He who began a work in you will carry it on to completion.", 

Phil. 4:8 Whatever is true, noble, right, pure lovely, admirable, trustworthy, excellent, praiseworthy think on such things., 

Galatians 5:22 fruits of the spirit love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control (pray for these), 

Col 1:9-12 (memorized the elements from the prayer, which states if we desire God and want to glorify and please Him (that is my reason for living following His will)) we can ask for and expect, knowledge, understanding, wisdom, bearing fruit, strength, power, endurance, patience-giving joyful thanks to the Father, (get this) who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of His holy people in the kingdom of light (wow!), 2 Tim. 1:7 "For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline. (remember it this way God gives us P.LS.) I read through the Psalms.

You are probably like: What! Huh! This is a lot, but wait let me explain. This is a more comprehensive list that I have learned over years. What's your list? Compiling a list of works in your waiting room is what is important. Your list. What is working to allow you to feel the peace and joy that Jesus wanted to leave us? A mode of hearing from God.

At the end of the waiting room and you are on the other side of a circumstance it's important to have your story ready to glorify God.

 Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose." NIV

I maybe sounding to perky here right now. Like the result of your waiting room is all good news. When my mom died I felt the weight of it all and when I got on the other side of it (timing is different for everyone) I was and still missing my mom. But I could say stories of God's guiding hand helping me get through it, seeing Him, hearing Him supporting me comforting me. Things like I can't do this. I can't see her dead or I can't get through were not able to come out of me because I prayed and I was guided to, Elaine you can do all things with me who strengthens you Phil. 4:13.,

 "Blessed are those who are grieving for they will be comforted." My response, but how God, how, Help me. The pain was so great! From knowing what God says about death helped me to navigate this difficult time.

" Brothers and sisters, we do not want you to be uninformed about those who sleep in death, so that you do not grieve like the rest of mankind, who have no hope. 1 Thess. 4:13" We grieve differently with the hope.

Getting now finally to:  This past week I concentrated on Phil. 4:8, Gal. 5:22, Col. 1:9-12, Rememorizing Ps. 139. 

Also the day of my surgery which was now Feb. 1,2024. I really had waited, but I woke up that morning with this. My devotion for the exact day was;

Driving to the hospital that song is my only thing on my mind. A nurse walks me back to my room and I pass a big window with I woke up to this glorious revelation! I'm having my procedure at 1250ish. My devo says the title "Praying for Healing". How great that this devo coincides with this procedure day and my circumstance. Coincidence? Oh no!! The reading on prayer is very insightful! What a mighty God we serve comes on my mind! I think of the children's  song and quickly find it on you tube, filling my mind with this playful fun song. 

the sun shining through. I say what a beautiful day, what a blessing. He responds well to that so I say this brings up what I have been singing all morning and I sing the stanza, "What a might God we serve, what a mighty God we serve, angels go before Him, heaven and earth adore Him, what a mighty God we serve." He says yes. I say I try to focus on the important things looking upward, heavenly. He said, "I teach my kids that each morning to get up and do the same."

I say, "Can I ask are you a Christian?" He says, "Yes, can you tell?" I say I was wondering and guessing you would say yes, Next he says, "My wife and I love to tell her testimony. I tell it as much as I can for God." Here's the story:

His wife when she was 15 years old was working with butter all over hands in the kitchen, when a friend called her to the balcony outside to tell her something. When she went out her hands were still slippery. The friend talked a couple of balconies away and suddenly as his wife leaned forward she fell over down 3 stories. She crack her head, bled out from her nose and ear and fell into unconsciousness. They rushed her to the hospital and did a scan on her brain and found damage. The village were all praying for her. For some reason hours later they redid the scan and they miraculously saw no damage. She was completely healed. A miracle. Someone pointed out the spot where she fell is the place where they come together once a week to pray. He said from that day she would never doubt that Jesus is real. 

I took a prayer request from another nurse. I just asked after she took such good care of me, "If you don't mind I would like to pray for you, what could I ask of the Lord?" She looked up surprised and was like as a matter of fact, "Yes! I am newly married and within the year we will be starting a family and buying a house and I would like it to be close to this hospital." I said "I would ask God to give her a sign and don't settle for just any house make a list." My surgeon came in and my husband I talked with her for about a 1/2 hour. She looked at my book and asked, "What are you reading." We got into a discussion and I found out she knew the Narnia books and C.S. Lewis. It was a delight because my surgery was delayed for 1/2 hour. 

In Psalm 139 the Psalmist says, "You have searched me, Lord, and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways."

He knows! He knows friend what you are going through. The bible says he knows yesterday, today and tomorrow. Friend give it to him and fix your eyes on what He gives you each day. Ask Him what do you want me to read today. I am no one special. What he did for me He will help guide you and get you through also. 

Let's pray:

Lord here is my list__________(go thru it with Him). Help me. What should I read, memorize or forgive? Forgive me for the times I did not listen or see, guide me. Thank you Father the promise of knowing me and showing me. Amen.

Giving makes me feel like I'm living, says...Author Mitch Albom

If you do not know Jesus personally and want to start to learn how to just Pray, Jesus I want to know you. Amen.

you must know....with Easter as our next Holy day...Jesus died and rose from death to paid for our sin. (we all fall short of the glorious plan of God, We are all born with a condition of separation from God) God has paid for us the penalty we deserve. He did this by dying on the cross. He is risen. We know can have full access to Him through His death and resurrection. This new life is forgiveness of sin and life eternally with Christ. This new life can only be find in Jesus. Jesus rose and went to heaven seated at the right hand of the Father. He did not leave us alone. He said the Holy Spirit will be our guide. 

Say to the Father you believe, thank Him for his plan and thank Him for the Holy Spirit who now resides in you. I now turn from going my way and I want to follow you from this day forward. Amen. 

Find a good bible believing church and stay powered up in prayer. Jesus loves you and wants to hold your hand to guide you. Do not let the evil one take this prayer away from you and try to say, "This is false and didn't happen." Find people who will reassure you of this truth. 

 

Friday, February 2, 2024

THE WAITING ROOM


Think of yourself in the waiting room and what do you do with your time?

I usually get me fingers going and taking in the blue light on my social media. But what "if" us believers were more intentional on a grander scale using our whole life, metaphorically, as being in the waiting room till Jesus returns.-

   so when a situation arises what do we do?

recently on Dec. 9 i got a mole checked and my Dr. was alarmed and said, "I don't like the look of that!"

She gave me a name of a dermatologist. I called from the Dr. office and the number was disconnected. I went to the nurse to inform her the Dr. she gave me was not available. I prayed what will happen now I feel she scared me and I needed to be seen quickly. She went to the Dr. and within an hour my primary Dr. said she would shave biopsy it on Jan. 11. I had to wait. I prayed God not sooner. Then within 24 hours I met others with a cancer diagnosis on their skin, they quickly reassured me God is in control and if I needed to get in soon that He would make it happen. It was not happening, so I calmed down and said what do I do in the waiting.

I did exactly what I was trained to do in 1997 when I had panic and anxiety attacks. The Lord back then had all my attention. I made a list of all that's going on. Being very honest of every thought I have had in a day. Even if I thought about a relationship, one of my prayer request from a friend. even a concern of a child. Everything! That gets every real thing down and I'm looking at it. Even my what "if's"

Like what if I don't get an answer of what this is that week? What if it grows bigger and worse?

Next I remember the very important verses that warn me about this "what if" kind of thoughts!

Stinking Thinking!

2 Cor. 10:5 "We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." NIV

2 COR. 10:5 "We use our powerful God-tools for smashing warped philosophies, tearing down barriers erected against the truth of God, fitting every loose thought and emotion and impulse into the structure of life shaped by Christ." THE MSG

WHAT type of thoughts

Think about what you are thinking: all thoughts captive to Christ.

Imagination, arguments of the fight and what you could and could not say (these thoughts keep wanting you to pick up the phone and keep that unproductive work going), impulsive loose thoughts (thoughts can come from nowhere and fly out of your mouth, where are they from you, evil, or God), truth, lies, 

The list puts them in front of your eyes and now you go through them asking:

is this true, is it a lie, where did the thought come from (me, God, evil one), the true vs. lie test fits for all thoughts impulsive, loose, imagination. We need the hard cold facts, pray!

Distinguish, act on now, later, never. 

You see I am asking for the opportunity to grow through this waiting process or trial. 

Opportunity vs. depression, anxiety, worry.

What else does God have to say about these things?

Matt. 6:24 Don't worry about tomorrow.

Phil. 4:6-7 Do not be anxious for anything. Thru prayer and petition and thanksgiving (emphasis added) present your requests to God and He will guard your MIND AND HEART in Christ our Lord.

Whose in control?

Psalm 139 - God knows you so well. In the end of this psalm is an examination of your heart. Search me and know me see if there is anything in me. God reveal it.

Waiting, listening, hearing. In the story of the transfiguration my greatest take away, God says, "This is my beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased; listen to Him."

Question:

Slow down, sit down, quiet down. Are you seeing and listening that this is best for you right now. 

I memorized Psalm 139. yes! Put it on index cards and took it with me everywhere. Others I memorized all the 5 verses of assurance (find them google Navigator 5 assurance verses for memorizing. click on quizlet, a least that's at the top of my google search. Front page is flash cards with the 5), Is. 23:6 "You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you., 

Phil. 1:6 "He who began a work in you will carry it on to completion.", 

Phil. 4:8 Whatever is true, noble, right, pure lovely, admirable, trustworthy, excellent, praiseworthy think on such things., 

Galatians 5:22 fruits of the spirit love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control (pray for these), 

Col 1:9-12 (memorized the elements from the prayer, which states if we desire God and want to glorify and please Him (that is my reason for living following His will)) we can ask for and expect, knowledge, understanding, wisdom, bearing fruit, strength, power, endurance, patience-giving joyful thanks to the Father, (get this) who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of His holy people in the kingdom of light (wow!), 2 Tim. 1:7 "For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline. (remember it this way God gives us P.LS.) I read through the Psalms.

You are probably like: What! Huh! This is a lot, but wait let me explain. This is a more comprehensive list that I have learned over years. What's your list? Compiling a list of works in your waiting room is what is important. Your list. What is working to allow you to feel the peace and joy that Jesus wanted to leave us? A mode of hearing from God.

At the end of the waiting room and you are on the other side of a circumstance it's important to have your story ready to glorify God.

 Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose." NIV

I maybe sounding to perky here right now. Like the result of your waiting room is all good news. When my mom died I felt the weight of it all and when I got on the other side of it (timing is different for everyone) I was and still missing my mom. But I could say stories of God's guiding hand helping me get through it, seeing Him, hearing Him supporting me comforting me. Things like I can't do this. I can't see her dead or I can't get through were not able to come out of me because I prayed and I was guided to, Elaine you can do all things with me who strengthens you Phil. 4:13.,

 "Blessed are those who are grieving for they will be comforted." My response, but how God, how, Help me. The pain was so great! From knowing what God says about death helped me to navigate this difficult time.

" Brothers and sisters, we do not want you to be uninformed about those who sleep in death, so that you do not grieve like the rest of mankind, who have no hope. 1 Thess. 4:13" We grieve differently with the hope.

Getting now finally to:  This past week I concentrated on Phil. 4:8, Gal. 5:22, Col. 1:9-12, Rememorizing Ps. 139. 

Also the day of my surgery which was now Feb. 1,2024. I really had waited, but I woke up that morning with this. My devotion for the exact day was;

I woke up to this glorious revelation! I'm having my procedure at 1250ish. My devo says the title "Praying for Healing". How great that this devo coincides with this procedure day and my circumstance. Coincidence? Oh no!! The reading on prayer is very insightful! What a mighty God we serve comes on my mind! I think of the children's  song and quickly find it on you tube, filling my mind with this playful fun song. 

Driving to the hospital that song is my only thing on my mind. A nurse walks me back to my room and I pass a big window with the sun shining through. I say what a beautiful day, what a blessing. He responds well to that so I say this brings up what I have been singing all morning and I sing the stanza, "What a might God we serve, what a mighty God we serve, angels go before Him, heaven and earth adore Him, what a mighty God we serve." He says yes. I say I try to focus on the important things looking upward, heavenly. He said, "I teach my kids that each morning to get up and do the same."

I say, "Can I ask are you a Christian?" He says, "Yes, can you tell?" I say I was wondering and guessing you would say yes, Next he says, "My wife and I love to tell her testimony. I tell it as much as I can for God." Here's the story:

His wife when she was 15 years old was working with butter all over hands in the kitchen, when a friend called her to the balcony outside to tell her something. When she went out her hands were still slippery. The friend talked a couple of balconies away and suddenly as his wife leaned forward she fell over down 3 stories. She crack her head, bled out from her nose and ear and fell into unconsciousness. They rushed her to the hospital and did a scan on her brain and found damage. The village were all praying for her. For some reason hours later they redid the scan and they miraculously saw no damage. She was completely healed. A miracle. Someone pointed out the spot where she fell is the place where they come together once a week to pray. He said from that day she would never doubt that Jesus is real. 

I took a prayer request from another nurse. I just asked after she took such good care of me, "If you don't mind I would like to pray for you, what could I ask of the Lord?" She looked up surprised and was like as a matter of fact, "Yes! I am newly married and within the year we will be starting a family and buying a house and I would like it to be close to this hospital." I said "I would ask God to give her a sign and don't settle for just any house make a list." My surgeon came in and my husband I talked with her for about a 1/2 hour. She looked at my book and asked, "What are you reading." We got into a discussion and I found out she knew the Narnia books and C.S. Lewis. It was a delight because my surgery was delayed for 1/2 hour. 

In Psalm 139 the Psalmist says, "You have searched me, Lord, and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways."

He knows! He knows friend what you are going through. The bible says he knows yesterday, today and tomorrow. Friend give it to him and fix your eyes on what He gives you each day. Ask Him what do you want me to read today. I am no one special. What he did for me He will help guide you and get you through also. 

Let's pray:

Lord here is my list__________(go thru it with Him). Help me. What should I read, memorize or forgive? Forgive me for the times I did not listen or see, guide me. Thank you Father the promise of knowing me and showing me. Amen.

Giving makes me feel like I'm living, says...Author Mitch Albom

If you do not know Jesus personally and want to start to learn how to just Pray, Jesus I want to know you. Amen.

you must know....with Easter as our next Holy day...Jesus died and rose from death to paid for our sin. (we all fall short of the glorious plan of God, We are all born with a condition of separation from God) God has paid for us the penalty we deserve. He did this by dying on the cross. He is risen. We know can have full access to Him through His death and resurrection. This new life is forgiveness of sin and life eternally with Christ. This new life can only be find in Jesus. Jesus rose and went to heaven seated at the right hand of the Father. He did not leave us alone. He said the Holy Spirit will be our guide. 

Say to the Father you believe, thank Him for his plan and thank Him for the Holy Spirit who now resides in you. I now turn from going my way and I want to follow you from this day forward. Amen. 

Find a good bible believing church and stay powered up in prayer. Jesus loves you and wants to hold your hand to guide you. Do not let the evil one take this prayer away from you and try to say, "This is false and didn't happen." Find people who will reassure you of this truth.